For those of you who don't watch Doctor Who, be forewarned. This whole post is about Doctor Who. It really is. So either suck it up and read or don't read this post. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.
Alright, so I'm like the biggest Doctor Who fan ever, right? And my friend's never seen it, yeah? So tonight of all nights I decided to watch it with her because I was hanging out and I really wanted her to see it.
What I didn't know is that tonight was the episode where two of my favorite companions left. THEY LEFT THE SHOW YOU GUYS!!!!!! I'VE BEEN ABANDONED!!!!!!!
Rory and Amy Williams. The nose and the legs. I am going to cry.
So, funny story. On my first blog, which you can find here if you want to read some family friendly ramblings of a thirteen year old, on the second post, which you can find here, I talk about Doctor Who. I have been a Whovian for a long time. Three years. Whatever, it felt like a long time to me!!!
Anyway, tonight's episode. Did not get that Rory and Amy were leaving until they were leaving and I was sitting on my friend's couch crying because I didn't know what to do with myself. Honestly.
Words I texted to a friend, while crying: RORY AND AMY ARE GONE AND MY HEART IS BREAKING AND I'M GOING TO CRY MY EYES OUT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Once I knew it was coming, once I figured it out, I think it was worse. Because then I was sitting on a couch with someone who's never seen the show before, trying to explain why having Amy say goodbye to the Doctor wasn't just a regular occurence, and that Rory and Amy were never going to be companions again and that I was going to have a good cry for a minute, if that was OK (it was; I love my friend Jacquie).
I had an inkling, earlier in the show, when Rory said "spent time" as in "past tense" as in "no longer are spending time" and then I kind of stored that information away in the folder of my brain where I emotionally deal with things LATER not at the present.
This is going to hit me so hard tomorrow. It is going to be really bad for a few days. Really really bad. Almost as bad as when David Tennant left. I bawled my eyes out in the kitchen when he regenerated. "I don't want to go". I didn't want him to go. And I don't want Rory and Amy to go. THE NOSE AND THE LEGS CAN'T LEAVE!!!!! MOFFAT WHAT ARE YOU DOING!?!?!?! Stephen Moffat, while I respect you with all of my heart, I will never forgive you for letting Amy and Rory go. Seriously!!!@!#U217407oryeoriywqro324. Sorry. That just needed to come out. Arthur, Matt and Karen had the best chemistry as actors together. Really, it was just dead brilliant. You could tell that they genuinely enjoyed working together, and that they were genuine friends, it wasn't faked for the camera. They seemed like going out to the pub after work friends, not see you tomorrow work friends. Ohmygod I'm so upset.
I'm sorry that I'm unloading all of my emotional trauma onto you guys. I love you forever if you are still reading. And before you all laugh at me for being emotionally attached to a show, I have an explanation.
Doctor Who allows me to believe that there is something beautiful and wonderful out there. And even though I will never get to experience it, or be there, I still believe that it is wonderful. I believe (not really I'm not mental)that there is a mad man with a box out there and he is saving the universe. And I think that having that belief helps me cope when I have an existential crisis of identity. I like believing that there is a British-accented, 900+ year old Time Lord out there who takes people away with him and they get to see extraordinary things. I like believing that. I don't know. It helps when the stars seem so infinite, and I seem so small.
I will always love the Doctor. Always.
I'm crying again, you guys, this isn't fun.
Love and kisses,