I am a socially awkward little penguin.
Sometimes I just feel so weird, and I get so freaked out and socially anxious that I can't even talk to my friends. I spend the entire time debating whether or not to talk to them, and then when I finally pluck up the courage, they're gone. It is so stupid. These people are friends with me in the first place for a reason. I shouldn't be freaking out. But I do. And then I yell at myself internally for freaking out since it is stupid.
UGH. Sometimes I wonder if anyone else feels this way, and then I remember that everyone feels like this sometimes. But it still doesn't make me feel any less awkward when it's happening.
So I just have to get over the huge pit in my stomach and say hello. And then I remember why I'm friends with people in the first place.
And it's because they are awesome.
Love,
Jen
NO YOU ARE NOT THE ONLY ONE THIS POST IS ME 90% OF THE TIME. Let's be socially awkward penguins together!
ReplyDeleteHave definitely felt that way more than a few times.
ReplyDeleteBeing friendly is nerve wracking and being introverted is comfortable.
Isn't life all about stepping out of one's comfort zone though? :)
DeleteI'm like a penguin all the time.
ReplyDeleteI want to be a socially awkward penguin with you
ReplyDeleteOh, I know exactly what you mean, although it only applies to me when I'm meeting new people whose opinions matter to me.
ReplyDeleteI try and overcome the akwardness by actually forcing myself into talking. It may look weird and forced at the beginning, but I feel so proud of myself when I do it, that I stop thinking about it and act naturally.
In time, the akwardness is gone :)
You summarize how I feel better than I can.
ReplyDeleteAlthough I think of myself more as an awkward bear.
Sorry I haven't commented in a while. I'm working on catching up on all of your posts.
ReplyDeleteI definitely know how you feel. I've recently compensated for my introversion and awkwardpenguinness by trying to talk to everybody and meet everybody whenever I have the courage. Starting conversations with random people about random things. The only thing you have to do to keep relationships or conversations from being awkward is to make the conscious choice to not make them awkward. Awkwardness is all in your head. And you can compensate for feelings of awkwardness with random hugging or strange conversations.
Perhaps I am just a closet/severely-conflicted extrovert with identity issues. I don't know.
I've missed you and your blog.