I am a socially awkward little penguin.
Sometimes I just feel so weird, and I get so freaked out and socially anxious that I can't even talk to my friends. I spend the entire time debating whether or not to talk to them, and then when I finally pluck up the courage, they're gone. It is so stupid. These people are friends with me in the first place for a reason. I shouldn't be freaking out. But I do. And then I yell at myself internally for freaking out since it is stupid.
UGH. Sometimes I wonder if anyone else feels this way, and then I remember that everyone feels like this sometimes. But it still doesn't make me feel any less awkward when it's happening.
So I just have to get over the huge pit in my stomach and say hello. And then I remember why I'm friends with people in the first place.
And it's because they are awesome.